Holidays Make You Grow Up

So...Christmas was yesterday. I've never been the kind of person that gets really excited about opening presents. Of course I like getting stuff, but I never know what to ask for, so I normally don't get what I want. This year I did give people some ideas what I wanted. I didn't really get them. The main things I got were things I could realistically use in my future. Example: pots, pans, knives, silverware, dishes... stuff like that.

Okay so these are not bad presents at all because they are practical and normally really expensive to buy, so I will be able to use them eventually. I honestly don't know what to do about my future right now. I am going to college. I just don't know which one. If I take my mom's advice and go to a community college my first two years and then transfer I would get an apartment. I think those gifts were kind of hint on her wanting me to do that, but I don't know. When we're kids we get a bunch of really fun presents and there's no hidden meaning behind them, but now I feel that's way different. It really made me think about making decisions about which college to go to. It's a hard choice to make.

I have gotten good grades all through high school, I have a good GPA, good ACT scores, so I can go to a lot of schools. I want to go to a university right away, but I think my mom's right. I will not be getting financial help from my parents so I will be paying for my college experience myself. The university I want to go to has a 5 year program for accounting which I really want to do. And the community college has a two year program for transfers that want to do the exact same thing. So, maybe I should do that. Maybe I should go to the community college and transfer because it would be 2 years at the cheaper community college and 3 years at the university.

It's just going to be hard to grow up and make all these decisions within the next few months. I have a bunch of different people in my life. Friends who are close and not, my family, and my boyfriend. I get really confused about who I want to keep in my life once I get out of high school because some people probably aren't worth bringing along with me past high school.

High School Dropout

I think it is SO STUPID that so many people are dropping out of high school. It's not hard to go to school. Normally if you just go and sit there you can get a passing grade. Yeah, school is boring over half of the time, but it's a requirement that helps ensure a better future. Just having a high school diploma helps you get a job. Also, high school is not that time consuming. For most students it's from 8 A.M. to 2:45 P.M. That isn't that long. You are also assured to never have to go on the weekends, we get many holiday breaks, summer breaks, and half days. It's really not that hard. If you just dropout and get a job there are chances you have to work on the weekends, you won't be paid that much, and you don't get all of those breaks. It's a lot harder to drop out than it is to go to school.

I have talked to a few people that have dropped out, and they have actually told me they regret dropping out because now they have to work harder to get a good job and school was actually easier than they thought. Surprisingly, they have actually advised me to go to school everyday and pass my classes and stay in school as long as possible. Their reason they told me to do this is because they wish they would have stayed in school. They also said it was a mistake to drop out because it forced them to grow up a lot faster than they had to.

This Is What It's About

Okay... so right now I'm at that point in my life where I need to figure out what I should do with my future. I want to be getting good grades, having a job, and having fun at the same time. I don't know what college I should go to, I don't know if I should keep some of my friends, I don't know whose advice I should be listening to, and I don't know what I should do about my boyfriend and how I should involve him in my future. I have a lot of decisions to make and I'm so confused. People keep telling me different things to do and I honestly don't know what I want. That is probably going to be the main subject of my blogging experience.

I'm either very opinionated or torn on some subjects that come up at school or in my everyday life. These things would mostly include the government and how the economy is doing, and also drugs. Many people use drugs, many different types of drugs, and they get charged for selling or having those drugs on them. I'm torn between what to believe on these subjects.

I also am really into tattoos right now. I am not personally old enough to get one yet, but I'm almost there. A lot of my friends have them and a lot of them are pretty cool, although some of them are kind of stupid. My parents would kill me if I ever got a tattoo. I think tattoos are okay to have as long as they have some kind of meaning behind them and they aren't there for a stupid reason.