I Dont Wanna Grow Up!!!!

This past weekend I went to Coe's Admitted Student Weekend thing...

So at it we were able to get a tour, stay the night (although I didn't), go to different sessions that help you learn more about Coe, and get financial aid advice. It was helpful, yeah, and the people were really nice, but all I could think about the whole time is I don't know what to expect out of any of this. It's a scary thought...the whole growing up thing. I'm going to be living on my own...which isn't a big problem for me. But I'm going to have to balance out my schedule to afford all of my bills, go to work, actually study and read my textbooks (which I never had to do to get by in high school, get all of my homework done, maintain a 3.0, still have a social life, and be able to spend as much time I want with my boyfriend.

It all just seems to be hitting me so fast. Like I have to make all of these decisions all at the same time and I know I have to, but it's so rushed and crazy that I don't know what to think half of the time. Or am I really making the right decision?? Coe has an average class size of 12-16 people in the class. That would be half of the class size I'm use to. True...this will get me more individual attention and more help from my professors if I need it. But it's all so stressful and scary that I don't have a choice. I have to grow up right now and decide my future. It's really hard because all up until senior year I knew I would go to college, but I had to make every single life changing decision within the last few months and I don't wanna be making the wrong choice.

Like sometimes I just wish I could wake up and be like ten years older with a good job and all of my decisions already made for me. I want a family when I grow up, and a husband, and a really successful job. But, making all of the decisions to get to that point is so hard!! I wish it was easier but it's definitely not...

People Suck

In previous posts I've blogged about what my future plans for college are... or were... they pretty much have completely changed within the last month. So just to freshen your memory...my plans were to go to the community college, Kirkwood, for two years, then transfer to the university, UNI, to finish off my major in accounting and becoming a C.P.A. Luckily, I'm still pretty set on that major, but maybe thinking about majoring in public relations as well, but I'm not so sure about that one yet.

But.. the reason my entire plan changed is because about a month ago Kirkwood sent me a letter saying that they were cancelling their accounting program for the fall of 2009, basically when I would be starting. They sent me this after they sent me a list of classes I would be taking, how much I would owe, housing information, and exactly what I would need to go there. The letter said I was only accepted if I changed my major and I would have to go through the whole application process again. Truthfully it was kind of a really rude letter... it kind of made it seem like I did something wrong and it was my fault for a program they originally said they had.

I was kind of freaking out after I got this letter, because I had so many plans figured out about where I was going to live, who I was going to live with, and everything. I didn't just wanna bail on all of my plans.. I was really excited for them. So I started looking for a new college.. this one in
Cedar Rapids because I kind of really want to stay in Cedar Rapids for a while. Like part of me wants to just leave Cedar Rapids as soon as I can and start over where no one knows me because part of me is extremely sick of this city and the people I have to deal with everyday. But, the other part of me, which is winning, wants to stay in Cedar Rapids and still be able to see my mom and sister every once in a while because they were all I had while I was growing up.

So, when I was looking for another college to apply to, I realized I had until March 1st, one week, to find a new college. It was so messed up and hectic. I really think that they should have given me more time. I mean my plans were set and they just send me a letter and expect me to figure out a second plan of what I want to do with my life in a week.

So, now I am going to Coe College next year. I got accepted with a $60,000 scholarship that I get over the four years. I'm pretty excited. I heard they have a good accounting program. So, I guess we'll see....

Changes in my blog...

The reason I started this blog is because it's a requirement to have 750 words made up of 3 posts each week. Yeah some weeks I don't write that much, but by the end of the term I have as many posts as I need for the full amount of credit. But, this term I'm going to change my blog in some ways.

One way it will change is last term I was pretty secretive about who I was and everything, but this term I'm going to be more open about who I am and more descriptive about certain places and some people.

I also changed the title of my blog. My last title was not descriptive at all, it was just some random thing I came up with when we were making up the blogs. This title still isn't very descriptive, but this blog seems to mainly be about how my life is changing by moving on from high school to college.

I hope my blog is a little more clear and understandable this term..