All Alone..

I've had a really rough week.. My mom's out of town so I'm alone that way. My sister is staying at my dads, so I'm at home with my dog. I mean I'm barely ever home. I am random times throughout the day, but I'm with my friends a lot. But, I still feel really lonely for some reason..

I don't mind being alone most of the time. I kind of really enjoy it. But, this time it was just a little different. I know I said in a few posts ago that me and my boyfriend of over a year broke up. I for real thought it was over then. I wasn't trying to talk to him. I wasn't going to see him. I started hanging out with this other boy, who is really sweet by the way, to make sure I didn't go back to my ex.

But, my ex took it way too far this week. He called me nonstop. Like 200 times in 2 hours with me never answering. About 500 text messages without me ever replying. He said he was sitting outside of my house waiting for me to get there. He threatened to break into my house, threatened to physically hurt me, and threatened to physically hurt anyone I was with. It was scary. I had to get my number changed. Again. About a month ago I got it changed for kind of the same reason.

This whole situation really bothers me because I know I should get a restraining order on him. Because I shouldn't be scared he's outside whenever I'm home. I know he's been here; I think it was when I wasn't here at least. I've gotten a letter from him in between my door yesterday morning and another letter about 4 days ago in my mailbox. Then, yesterday when I was coming out of school, because I get out at an earlier time than most people, I was walking out of school with two other people and I looked down the parking lot and my ex was parked behind my car waiting for me. I was freaked out.

Like I had no idea why he was there. He owes me money, but I said I didn't want it. I mean yes I would honestly love my money, but after everything he's been doing this week I would rather just not see him or have anything to do with him. So, I didn't go to my car. I went with the other people I was walking with.

This situation sucks really bad. I mean I really did have a good relationship with this guy and we both loved each other a lot. We were best friends. I understand that he's attached and misses me, but this is psycho and way overboard. I just don't know what to do. Because what he's doing is harassment and illegal. Basically stalking me. But, I would feel so bad pressing charges against him because he meant so much to me. I just wish it could have ended better. It ended good at first, then I don't know what happened with everything. He just snapped. This is a scary situation. I really don't know..