Moving Forward

So... I just applied to the community college my mom wanted me to apply to. I kind of feel content about the decision too, which surprises me. I mean all as I was growing up I said I would never go there. I feel kind of like I'm making kind of a stupid decision though because I have a 3.8 GPA and I have gotten good ACT scores. I could get into many universities. I'm not exactly sure why I'm doing this. Maybe partly it's because I wanna make my mom happy. Partly because whenever my mom thinks about me leaving she crys. I'm the one that takes care of her. I try to do the things around my house that she can't do or would hurt her because of injuries she has gotten. I look out for her, not because I feel like I have to. She is my mom, she does take good care of me. But, I think it's because of everything she has done for me and how hard she has worked to try and give herself, my sister, and me a good life together.

I also think I might be okay with going to the community college because I am going to transfer to the University afterwards. I want to get into the accounting program at the University, which is a 5 year program there. So, I figure 2 years at the community college and 3 years at the university, I will be less likely to get bored going to that college because I will be in different surroundings during different years of my education.

I think I'm going to live in an apartment at the community college. My boyfriend says he wants to move in with me... it just depends. I mean by that time we would have been together for a year and a half and I do love him. I just don't want to get my hopes up and plan my future around him being there or around him living with me if there's a big chance it will fall apart. I really don't want it to fall apart, but I can't tell the future and I can't tell what's going to happen. I guess I'll just have to make different versions of plans and wait and see....